Tuesday, April 27, 2010

Monday, April 26, 2010

It's hard, yahk. Things are never soft.

I look at things to hard sometimes.
I love things too fast.
I put in high hopes and imagine far too much.
In the end, everything comes tumbling down
like Humptey Dumptey.

And what's left with me?
A hard crap in my heart.

No wonder I like hard candy so much
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Friday, April 23, 2010

How much I spent today =O

Went to a skin specialist today. I haven't been there since 2003 so it was kindda weird being in that clinic, since I remember it being white and know the walls are painted yellow! We had to rush there because my appointment was at 12.30 and school ends at 12pm. If you're late or you didn't make an appointment, bye bye lah. You can only consult the doctor IF you made an appointment.

I waited for ma at the bus stop. Oh no. I haven't waited in the school's bus stop before, exception on Mondays because I have Accounts class. It was scary, and hot. And everyone was sardined in that small bus stop, some unknown people were staring and walking around. And everyone STINKED!! The sun was beaming hot and all... and ma was late! She was caught in the jam and everyone seemed to drive so slow today. Luckily we weren't late. haha

So, again with the waiting. Waited for about more than half an hour until it was my turn. The receptionist said all the appointments are delayed because some kind of laser thingee they were doing took up a bit of time. It's not a bit if you ask me ): And so, I met with the doctor, face to face, at 1.30 I guess. 1 hour ahh!!!!

The main reason I went to see the skin specialist is because of my chicken pox scars. I had chicken pox two years back and it was really bad. If you're not afraid to look at me during the ugliest period of my life, then click here. If you have a weak stomach, I suggest you to continue reading this post (: So, my chicken pox scars. I still have some of them, most of them on my body. But two really bad ones are actually on my chest. Really bad as in you might still think that it is chicken pox if I didn't tell you what it is. These two thingee-s has become an 'item' on my body. Whenever I wear something slightly lower, they get the chance to shine. Almost everyone comes up to me and ask what issit. Lately, it has been realising it's anger, I think. It hurts, a bit. So I decided to consult a doctor.

I found the solution, injections. INJECTIONS!??! Not that I'm scared or anything but I didn't know that it was so serious. The doctor explained that no cream can make the two scars disappear because it's like, flesh, not normal pimple-like things. And injecting something into it is the only way to lessen the obviousness. Means that it won't disappear, it will just be flattened, and the red-ness might still exist. And blah blah. More talking. Ma and I told the doctor that we would discuss with pa, about this matter, since the injections are pricey, and you have to do it once a month. And if you're unlucky because you're born with stubborn skin, then you might have to be injected every month, for perhaps 1 year!! If lucky then 3 times like that siap dah, the doctor said lah.



That's about it. And the doctor explained more. She said I have mild acne problem?! *&^% *&^$ Yeah I know I do, and stress lagi leh this week. So stress ohh. So she said that my tiny acne might result to leaving scars on my face and so on. So she wants to prevent it and all. She kept saying PREVENT!! Which was so scary, and she was shocked when I told her I use only water to wash my face. I know it sounds shocking but I really do only use tap water to wash my face. Ma and I don't find the need for me to go facial or anything like that. I'M STILL YOUNG!! The doctor asked us to think about the injections, and gave me some thing to start washing my face and some high-class acne cream.

OH GREAT!
NOW I HAVE TO START WASHING MY FACE!!!
WITH FACIAL WASH!!

I so don't want to do it because I'm so lazy, and I don't think facials are neccesary for me. haha. And I malas wanna put this cream and that cream. Make my life more complicated only, aiks.

And the worst part is. The consultation fee and 3 tubes of acne/washing cream costs me a fortune. Okay, MY MA'S FORTUNE. All together we spent RM200 in a jiffy. She was mad lah. blahblah. She even told me that my coveted Converse flew away ... * I told her that I want to buy the rainbow Converse :X*

Lesson for the day. Go for chicken pox vaccination. And skin specialist's make big money. A career to venture :D

Ma said since the creams are so expensive, I HAVE to wash my face with it. wah. ):


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I've reached the 100 marks of friend's request. So evil kan. haha I don't add people I don't know so..like that lah :P
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School day tomorrow D: It's a Saturday and I've waited for it to come for so long! This week has been stressful, and tiring. And I have youth tonight. Plus, I just got a phone call from a cell leader that I have to take care of a new youth coming in. She's deaf and mute. Sympathy. But I'm afraid that I might scare her because I'm so tired. And I have acne problems. =.=" It's a stressful week, what can I say. But I still have to live.



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Had to post this! haha. TOO FUNNY!

YOYO!!

Thursday, April 22, 2010

Uiyoh!

Coming to discover that I only have less than 2 years in KKHS, makes me feel... I DUNNO. I'm not really a school person so I don't really love my schools. I respect it and all, but I just won't say I love my school to everybody I see. :D

Two classmates approached me and said that they feel like changing schools. And their choice? The private school, which is famous in our region. I don't know why they had this idea but I think they're pretty sure they want to, something in their eyes were affirmative :O

I really don't think changing schools is such a fun thing to do, or maybe I was just born loyal. Not really lah but when I'm somewhere, I'll stay somewhere for a long time. Like if I'm rooting for Jason Castro, I'll support him till the end.

same goes to schools. If I'm already in this high school, I don't find the need to change to other high schools because I'm already in one place. Everything is already in one place, and if I really switched to some other school, I'm gonna miss a bang lots of people. And I have to get up early for school which I don't, since I forgot. I live in a blessed area where there are preschools, primary and secondary. Got kindy also lah but I went to one a bit further. But I still can sleep in, unlike other students who have to get up at 5, and leave home at 6 or something. haha. I wake up at 6 and then slowly drink my milk then only I get out of the house. Travel time =3 minutes. HAHA!!!

Walk also can reach but you know lah, it's hot and we're malas. Oops. Mind you Abby, you're supposed to save Earth!! So Nick and I proposed to pa the other day about riding our bikes to school then he said okay =/ It's fine with me. haha. We just need to find chains or something, to lock our bikes. And we're gonna make a statement. haha

See lah, if it works. If not, too bad loh ):

Tuesday, April 20, 2010

Finally, I can sleep

Well, not really. At least I have one thing to shake off!

Went to SMK All Saints' today. For Public Speaking Competition. I remember mentioning in my post weeks back about being an understudy but in the end, I got chosen for the REAL DEAL. hah. I wanted to tell but I only found out yesterday, which was the day before THE day. haa.
And guess what? I didn't win!! haha. So yeah, I was disappointed that I didn't win but I knew in the beginning, that I had no chance at all. I mean, I only had less than a week to prepare and blahblahblah. I thought Edward was going to be the real deal manatau the teachers changed their minds in the end. So I had to face embarassment T.T

But it wasn't that bad, honest. I think I did okay, though I could do better. The judges were so shocked when I sang All I have to do is dream. The man judge even sang along! So maybe he liked my singing, but my speech wasn't so well off. Oh well, it's my first time and it's an experience. At least I pernah stand on stage and talk for 5 minutes mahh.. :D And also, I managed to finish my speech! Well, not really. I missed an important part, the part where Monty Roberts now live in a big house, on the horse ranch. and I got all mixed up but ok lah. Gah. haha. Oh and the impromptu was so bad, the title was "Talent". And I really sucked in that. I didn't even know what to say. I didn't even want to prepare. But in the end at least I blurted out something and one of the judges was laughing at me. haha. I didn't really care. I smiled at her lah.

In ma's office now. Long story. The school van driver was late so we went to Giant to buy ice-cream, then we ate it at the mamak stall, with banana fritters. Waited for a long time, past school hours, so I called ma and she picked me up from Likas, abandoning the others at the Mamak Stall. Poor thing. I feel so bad but haha, I had an evil plan :D I wanted to come down to ma's office because I wanna go SurSa (Suria Sabah. Blame the Neon lights :D Then you'll understand) to get my zebra baby (: But then, I found out that zebra baby was not as big as I thought it was ): So I bought another pencil box instead. ahh.. who cares. I want quality and quantity at the same time mah (: Though it's not at all ZEBRA-ISH!

Had my "lunch" in KFC. Won't exactly call it lunch as I had it at 4pm! I didn't have my actual lunch, btw. So I can't say that it's my tea break. It's my lunch!!


So, pub. spk is finally over. I have to thank a lot of people, because lots of them helped me along the way (: Although I have no clue whether they will read this or not but here goes :)))

I wanna thank, first and foremost, GOD! For telling me which speech to use and what I should do. And also calming me down while I was on stage. I love You.

Ma, and pa. For encouragement. and also scolding me. haha

Nick. For helping me with my text. Although I din't win, but I still belanja you Choco Top lah :P
Kung. For support. Your words always stick in my head like glue.

Edward. For helping me with my text, again. And teman-ing me to skip classes XD I know you should be chosen, you are a much better candidate but hey! You got assembly next week!! and also try to talk more lah, uncle!

Puan Vicky and Claire. Thanks teachers. Now I know that teachers are also cool :D

Valerie Lim! Lydia and Danial. Thanks for the support, and the funny faces you guys made! Thanks for the coaching too!

Marie. THANK YOU! For giving me ideas for my text. This lady important you know. haha. She helped me with most of my text. And she was the super support system. Always there :D
Aly, Pae Yii, Shnwei. For all the insults and love. haha.

LIANA TEOH! For making me cry when you called last night. Felt super better after talking to you! Thank you very much darling!!

Adam Hiew. For giving me a science lecture. And kacau-ing me when I'm stress enough already!And thanks for reading my text.

Aunties :D For reading my text, again. And for the comments. Felt heart-warmed when you guys gave me the affirmation.

Planetshakers. For the song Nothing is Impossible. It's an awesome song and it helped it all the way, truly Nothing is Impossible with GOD!

And to whoever I missed out. A BIG THANK YOU!! :D

After this whole majigga, I've come to realise a lot of things. A lot of things about fun and love and all. It's not about just the public speaking itself, but it is the whole process. The jokes, the laughing, the headaches ... it sums up the whole thing. It's not just the five minutes on stage but it is the things that happen before that. (:

So yeah! It's an experience that I'll not forget! But I'm SO not doing it next year. haha

Monday, April 19, 2010

HUH-ELP!!

This is for Marie, Shnwei and whoever is reading my blog today. Text me on whether I should use my old text or the new. I dunno. I'm doubting. helllp

Wednesday, April 14, 2010

Jiao Ban?!

haha. I was talking about how my "jiao ban" hurt after the tennis clinic I joined in school. Well, to make things clear - jiao ban refers to my feet. Not banana fritters. haha.

After recovering from this foot-aching thingee (Actually I'm not fully recovered. The pain revived after too much running), I am now facing another foot aching thingee. haha. Yeaps. I bought new school shoes but they don't really fit well. It's too big though it's only a size 4 and somehow it makes my feet hurt!

So here goes the foot-aching again. Poor feet. I must master the foot spa thingee so I can do it to myself everyday. ngaha. NOT!

Okay. Somehow I think that form 4 is gonna be fun. It might not honeymoon year but who says you can't have fun in prison?!

Monday, April 12, 2010

Wear it, mean it

I remember during the REVO party where Ps. Andy Yeoh told us about the story about the boy who wore the 'Subang for Jesus' t-shirt to school and he was proud of it. He did it not because it was cool or anything like that but he did it because of Jesus. For more details about the story or others, click here or google Recess Revo. The stories touch hearts, trust me.

The reason I wanted all of you (if there's any. I doubt anyone reads my blog. Macam I 自己爽 only) to know about this t-shirt story is because something happened in school today, which totally proves something! haha.

While Aly was buying food today during lunch in the canteen, she was standing somewhere lah. I dunno where but it was somewhere near the food line or some sort, then came D. So, somehow D banged into Aly, for no reason. Aly said that she wasn't even in her way. And you know what N did? She spitted the F word into Aly's face. FOR NO REASON. So Aly so kesian lah. She didn't even knew what she did wrong and this mhai gui D went to swear at her. What a crazy thing to do.

1. If you see Aly, you won't spit a F word on her. 大欺小 now issit? Based on the sizes of their body, she shouldn't bully Aly. ngaha. It's like an old grandmother bullying her granddaughter. No offense Aly. Chilli padi also pedas... :D

2. If you don't really know this D person, you might think that she is ok and all. She looks decent, innocent look. Can't deny that she also has good looks. Now everything here just proves that she's the total opposite. And I know she is a person that likes to be pretty and good looking at all times but you go swearing here and there like an uneducated lady, you're make-up won't ever cover your dirt.

3. *Please note that this is THE most important part of the whole thing. The main reason I blogged about this because I know it's not really my business* If you wear a "Jesus saves" tee proclaiming that you have been saved and you are going to preach others about His mighty works and save more lives, I salute and support you all the way. Don't care if I know you or not but I'm gonna pray that you'll do His work. BUT HELLO!? Yes you wore the t-shirt and yes maybe you have saved some lives (I dunno lah. Assume that you have) and no doubt you look good in that t-shirt but if you F-ed someone, even without the t-shirt on, IT IS SO NOT COOL.


We are told, as Christians, to be a role model. To do good and show a good example to others. I bet other religions ask their believers to do the same thing too. No religion teaches to do bad, so this is pretty general. We're supposed to do good and be good. Excuse me D, although you have told the world that you are saved, doesn't mean that you've played the part. F-ing someone is a big nono. I bet your pastor won't like this.

I'm not here to insult or critisize D in any way but I just think that we as Christians, have to set a good example to others, not just showing your love by wearing cool t-shirts. I know it's not easy to change, but you can because God loves us so much. He died for us, remember? You can't stop swearing for HIM?

Saturday, April 10, 2010

For some certainty

This week has been hard, something rolling inside doesn't seem to come out.
I know what things are good for me, and what pulls me down
I know what medicine I need to take, and what drug to avoid
I know prayer works, and complaints are a total blank


At times people are stubborn to make the right choices in life. Deep down in your heart you know that is no good for you but you persuaded your brain into making that awfully dumb desicion, and whatever the consequences, you suck it in as if all is well. People cheat, but they fool themselves too.

Tuesday, April 6, 2010

Some people are meant to love each other,
but not meant to be together.


Came across my mind when we were having a quiz.
Which everyone opened their book.
mhai

Thursday, April 1, 2010

up, up and away!

How I wish I could say that but I'm jsut an understudy. I think. No I'm not starring in a Broadway production. I'm actually taking up something quite unexpected in school. Blame my English teacher. haha. Oh yeah. Not gonna tell you guys about it, but I'll blog when the day comes. Plus, I'm just the understudy.


Using the term understudy is so cool!! haa